*disclaimer: this is almost too scatterbrained, i apologize. lack of sleep and too much to know. it's fine.
i'm beginning to question whether or not i can make it through this last week of school.
whether i do or don't, i'm so looking forward to it being over.
i've learned far too much about anatomy. especially the reproductive systems and all the "yummy" juices floating around in our bodies. do you know the flow of blood through the heart, lungs and kidneys? hey, me too!
the cadavers are my friends and i often think what i would look like as a cadaver. what is wrong with me? folks, it's bad. i need to be done with this human anatomy class.
i cried in human development today when we talked about death and heard a really really really sad story.
i should probably study for my chemistry final soon. plus human development. plus yoga. gah!
i loathe finals. especially comprehensive finals.
don't you?
good.
let's revolt.
let's just be young, wild, and free.
no more educational perfectionism.
okay, sounds great.
but we have to wait until next week of course when the semester is over and done with.
duh.
okay. i'm done with that little rant.
hello!
how are you?
i haven't blogged for a bit.
and a lot has happened.
i ended my "teenage" years and entered in the two decades club.
almost passed out at work. ha, good times.
became a new concert goer.
avalanche city. opener for fun. but i already knew of them, and love love love them!
fun. so good. so fun.
neon trees. concert for autism. LOVED. i wish i could kick as high as him.
the lower lights: hymn revival band. opened for neon trees. so many voices and instruments, it was beautiful!
chris merrit.
watched new girl, grey's anatomy and happy endings religiously.
thai food.
frozen dinners and take out.
and caved into my slight addiction of online shopping.
my parents + the twins + dr. Jekyll and mr. Hyde (aubrey) have been in Chicago since April 5. now that is just too long, but they come home on sunday! and sadly, for the majority of our time adriane and i have been studying. i miss them. the other day when i called them, i asked little simmy if she knew who she was talking to.
"kelsey bobbi!!"
yes, that's their nickname for me and i'm completely satisfied and filled with joy when i hear it. i love them.
2 days.
and perhaps seeing my beautiful family will help me get through this next week.
anyone want to challenge me to a game of rock paper scissors lizard Spock?
it's weird to think that its been sixteen years without him.
my sister was 5, & i was 3.
we were young and he left too soon.
i carry those few faint memories of him with me everyday and think of all the "what ifs" and how things would be today if he was still here. throughout the years, adriane and i have listened to amazing stories and memories from others. i know he was good husband, father and man. he's missed a lot of moments, but i know that he is there with us and supporting us in all of our adventures.
he's been there every time i've laughed
he's been there every time i've cried
he watched me whine and complain as a teenager.
he was at all my dance rehearsals, competitions and shows.
he was there at my high school graduation and my first day of college.
he has been there for adriane even when she was feeling low and having a hard time.
he's blessed our lives in so many ways.
he will help us make all of our decisions.
he'll approve of the man i choose to spend forever with.
he will be there when i get married.
he'll share experiences with his grandchildren.
and so much more.
he was and will continue to be there in spirit.
we love & miss him terribly.
& when we see him again, i know he will be proud of all we had become.